Overwhelmed

I may be once again overwhelmed with all things happening.

I must admit I was sad with what happened not more than a month ago and I my hopes were up, confident enough that I would have him back. Things changed and everything is not going the way it should be. Well, how should it go anyway?

(Crabby)
New people and newly met friends excites me, though it contributes only temporary happiness and I can not conclude about decisions and things that are not yet happening. I expected the worst but good things are happening and the better is yet to come, as I am constantly hoping and praying for that to happen. Crabby, you make me smile but not enough to make me happy; I’ll play by your rules. I only get what you can give and I shall not expect anything nor ask anything from you. But if you must ask what I want, I want you to stay. “You make me smile, please stay for a while.” I might want to keep you. You are more than the person I think you are. I’m glad that you decided to set your life straight and honestly that is making me really happy. But I'm pretty sure you staying here will ruin everything. I'll see you when I get there. [“This is for you.”-Crabby, The song The Way I Are plays] I miss you now.

(Shoti)
They say the one you truly love will always come back to you. And she did, love led you back into each others arms. As much as I hate to see you go and be with the love of your life, I’ll hate myself for not supporting and backing you up to your happiness. For ages, I’ve been getting my strength from you and you leaving is a heart break, must I say. We may have pointless arguments and endless taunting that drew us apart but the love from a sibling and seek for guidance, support and knowledge will bring us back together, for sure. You’ve waited years for this to happen, and it’s all happening for you brother. For you and Kaycee. I fervently wish that distance wouldn’t be a factor that would cause our misunderstandings and miscommunication in the future. You are still, after all, my baby brother. I am going to miss you.

(Daddy)
Once again, you are fading away. I wouldn’t dare ask why so no explanations and reasons and excuses shall come out from your mouth. You’ve been away for a long long time and a little presence of you is very much needed now. I appreciate everything you do but please don’t draw your self away from your legitimate son and daughters. You were wealthy enough to have two families, make some effort not missing out on us. I miss you already.

This is not a story, this is not a book
This is your life
And this is not a play, some TV show you've seen
This is real life, you know that
This is your, this is your life.

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