i'll blame it on BADLUCK

"maybe i should have panicked to begin with, maybe i should have not denied it, maybe i should have been more careful. maybe i should have stopped smoking and drinking long before it came, maybe i should have been prepared even before it died. "

Maybe I already accepted the fact that its gone. There's nothing we can do to bring it back. Its bad enough to be relieved after expecting and thinking all about the hustles, problems, problems and more problems... Nothing went right after the miscarriage. At least some things went right before it happened. We knew that we were serious about it, the people that I don't think will help intently wants to help, and I thought I'd never get all that support.

Still trying to absorb it...

At least a little honesty happened, Mom found out about it and she's constantly checking out on me.

Worst weekend :(